Woke up feeling so loved.
It’s the year end again. Sometimes I forget how fast time flies. Other times I forget how crazy things can change in just a mere 365 days. Next Christmas, I wonder how things will turn out to be.
Last year this time, things were completely different. Both good and bad, they’re experiences and a life chapter that I will always cherish. Tears, goodbyes and new beginnings, but the love stayed strong and continues to be.
I woke up today feeling incredibly loved that emotions poured out of my eyes. And I’m grateful for these reminders at necessary times.
At the end of the day, there’s still no one on earth that knows me like E. Sure, my family does, but E knows everything about me. I always look up to him as a guiding star and my safe home. I feel the safest around him, and I can pour everything out. I’ve never felt so safe around someone before. And I’m glad he’s still my safe place. The romantic love changed into family love and I’m so grateful for that.
In the last year of independence, both of us have grown so much. We were in a different place last year and I’m so proud of where we are today. We definitely grew to become better versions of ourselves, supporting each other as we move along the journey. It is a confusing world out there, and to know I have a safe place, is the best thing one can have.
I’m so grateful we experienced the best and worst of times together. It’s rare and unique. It’s simply special on its very own. And that’s why I feel that I will never have the similar connections again, for things are just different now. And in a strange way, to full open up my deepest fears to someone is a terrifying thing now. Bc no one has made me feel safe enough to do that again.
I’m most proud of the spirituality growth. All these years, to see him become a better person, inspire me. And when I feel like I have troubles connecting with different value sets here, I know I can always ring him up and share those frustrations. His advice is always at the back of my head, reminding me of things I’m forgetting to remember.
I’m most grateful that we are grateful for being each other’s support and the ability to fully trust each other.
Here’s to the next chapter and more clarity
To new friendships and long lasting ones