How do you start your day? I used to start my day in one of the 3 ways: think of 6 impossible things before breakfast (2017), what are the 3 things you’re grateful for (2018), journal for 5 minutes (2019).
- I’ve done more impossible things in 2017 than I have in other years
- 2018 was such a life changing year thanks to the lessons learnt and kind souls met
- 2019 is about reflection, growth, awareness and accountability. Sometimes, just 5 minutes of quiet time really gives me the adequate “me-time” to pause and look deeper inside. The world keeps getting more complicated and fast-paced. It’s easy to get lost in the illusion of busy-ness.
This week, I started to combine 5 minutes journal with 3 things I am grateful for. In general, I practice gratitude every other day and at the end of the year. I’m constantly reminded by how wonderful the world is.
In 2013 and 2014, I had a book, where I recorded all the things I’m grateful for. I started this again in my latest notebook.
I went to sleep yesterday and a random memory popped up. Elliott and I were in the mall and someone came up to us. I was worried at first. No one randomly comes up to anyone in London!
He came up, apologized for the disturbance and said we both look so good individually and as a couple. Oh my, my heart melted and it totally made my day! I do love little moments like that. I’m sure I will never forget it. We weren’t having the best morning then, but that totally turned the day around. I’m grateful for beautiful strangers on the streets. (More happy words)
Exactly Where I Want To Be
I’m so grateful about how everything is just right. Time reveals you or exposes you. I’m always reminded that things take time, and just go along with the baby steps and allow time to work with you. (It frustrates me so much, since I like efficiency and this method is really not efficient. But I’ve learnt to appreciate the process, hone my skillsets in the time and allow time to reveal me. It’s just being aware.)
I know I can get anxious about the future because I worry I cannot achieve them. Some things are just not within my control. But I am doing my best to achieve the things I can achieve within my control.
I’m in no rush to go anywhere. I am exactly right where I want to be. I’m so grateful. My little heart is full.
It’s moments like these, where I pause to count my blessings, that I am in happy tears. Life is as wonderful as you make it to be. And I’m living in my very own “life goals”.
I’m just grateful to be constantly supported by giants, who push me and help me. It could be luck, the universe or whatever higher spiritual being there is out there, but I’m grateful to be where I am.
Something I realised in this quarter is how often women doubt ourselves. That is a huge perk of always being around men¹. They simply don’t overthink too much and have significantly less doubt. There are also no conversations about doubts from overthinking. Just straight-forward and clarify when doubts exist. They’re also always supporting me² when I have my doubts and encouraging me for the skillsets I have.
Me: Shit, I don’t know, I don’t think I can do that.
Them: Bullshit. Shut up. You can do it. You are good enough!
That’s precious and insanely important! I’m so grateful. I’m grateful to be surrounded people who are always supporting me and have incredible faith in me.
¹ I really do try and meet more women. But in the space of my interests (tech, nerdy tech, econs, fin, fintech, geopolitics, brain stuff, culture, art), it’s mainly dominated by men. Also, conversations with women are usually around relationships and feelings. While I do enjoy chatting about relationships and feelings, I’d very much prefer chatting about my interests. It’s not so easy to find women who can chat about the rest. So when I find them, I keep them so close to me! My friendships with women are 100x more precious than with men.
² It’s not about external validation of my skillsets. Sometimes women really overthink too much. There are too many externalities that can have an adverse effect on the work or comment said. And we like to mitigate these things. But that results in uncertainty and self-doubt. Silly women. On the other hand, men pretty much………. kinda just do it with a high enough confidence level. I’m learning to be leverage the fact that I am a woman and learn the advantages that men have. (Little more insights to my observations of men vs women.)