Bawling over this movie because it aptly describes me and brings back memories of us. Also, I really need to turn the tap of tears off. I learnt to cry when in Hong Kong and now I’m always bawling.
Nonetheless, it’s a beautiful and creatively filmed sci-fi. In short, it’s about a couple who go all out to delete the memories of one another. Through the process of deleting, they realise how much they had. He wanted to stop the deletion process but he just could not. They run from scenes of their love life to the next scene, hoping that the memories will not be deleted. They even went to new untapped memories to hid. However the machine always caught up with them. He would stand there embracing her as the world around collapse and disappears along with her. In the end everything was erased. However, one random day on Valentine’s eve, they met each other again and fell in love. They realised they had a past but that did not stop anything.
Perhaps this is a sci-fi but I think it also means if you love someone, let them go. If they’re meant for you, they will find someway back. I kind of believe that not because it’s nice, but because it makes me feel better when I let someone go. Including friends.
Bawl #1: Enjoy It
We both knew the time we have is always going to be gone. January’s short separation (Hong Kong, Singapore). April’s separation (Korea, Japan), May separation (Hong Kong, Singapore), August separation (Singapore, Germany). We always knew time is short and from the start, so we decided to make the fullest out of it. It hurts to enjoy so much and as time creeps by, you actually see it falling into pieces.
That’s when you know everything is ending. That’s when you know it’s time to say goodbye. That’s when everything hurts so bad.
Bawl #2: I Wish I Could
I died at this part. I know he really wished he could stay. But sometimes life does not give you everything you want. He had to go because he really had to. But that sad smile when he said “I wish I had stayed”, it killed me. I asked him so many times if he could stay. He could only smile at me then hug me and said he wished he could.
Don’t Erase Me
I hope I’m not easy to erase. I hope you will never want to erase me. No doubt, these few days I kept thinking of erasing you off. But things will come right back to tell me not to. It’s a constant battle. My mind is like the machine, finding all the memories and deleting them. My heart is taking the memories and jumping from places to places, keeping them safe. I don’t even know what to do anymore. All I know is that I miss you.
Maybe one day from now we will meet again. In some corner of this earth. We will bump into each other and we will cancel our plans and talk from afternoon till night. We will both be successful then and hopefully happy. I could take another shot. So many things we have yet to do. So many places we have not explored. So many memories to be made. 2 days in Aachen will not be enough, but staying longer will only hurt us both and make yet another sad departure. I don’t know. I hope we will meet again some day.
I hope you will never ever erase me from your mind. Ever.
In ewiger Liebe,