“I wish that I could wake up with amnesia and forget about the stupid little things”
Still on the topic of getting better, I came across this song. To be honest, I am really good now. I define okay as looking back at the memories and smiling instead of feeling sad. I don’t regret anything and I am forever thankful for the wonderful times. And I’m really (my definition of) okay now, at least like 90% of the time. And that’s great. But this song made me feel rather sad again.
If I have the choice, would I want to wake up with amnesia? I don’t remember the memories, don’t remember V and don’t know anything that happened. Perhaps I will be the happy girl like always and rule the world. I’ll also not feel the pain and sadness during random nights, or think about us when I see a couple or I can talk freely about couple stuff with others without feeling a pang of jealousy.
But I can’t bring myself to imagine what if it really happens.
I never want to forget anything.
Everything that happens/happened to me has built me up to who I am today, my values, my opinions, my preferences and my choices. The experiences and lessons define me and sets my expectations for the future. I don’t want anything to start from new or have a change in views about the world. I didn’t work this hard to have a change in views about my world.
Forgetting is not the answer to life. It only blocks out certain parts of it. Accepting, appreciating and moving on is what you should do instead. I love every single bit of thing that happened to me – all the happiness, sadness, tears and laughter. I never want to change a thing nor forget them; even if I can choose to forget only the sad parts.
This is how life works and what the universe has planned for you. Sunshine all the time makes a desert. I’m happy to have life going like a roller coaster, making me appreciate every single fleeting moment.
What is that one thing you want to forget?