Originally posted on 06 February 2023
Very so often, I forgot about what it means to feel content. I like reading this planets, stars and appreciation post that I wrote in 2014. It was the first time it clicked in my head and I understood what it means to be content. A problem is that I am all about growth and optimisation, which means I am always looking for the next thing. The next hit, the next high, the next dopamine hit from achieving my goals. This means the goalpost keeps getting further and further. And in the midst of the chase, I forgot about being content with what I have right here right now.
I noticed this right now. The past 5-6 years were about growing, accelerating and changing the next high. It wore me out emotionally because I cannot be comfortable with the present and to just be. I am reflecting on it and realised I forgot to be content.
I’m really happy at where I’ve come so far. Being in the reflective mood and lots of happy tears :’) what on earth did I do right to be here right now? Idk. I’m just grateful and happy to be where I am right now.
you are only human. It’s okay to slow down and take a break. We all need that. Smell the flowers. Watch the clouds. Look at people passing by. Remember to just be.