Originally posted on 30 November 2016
So recently, I've been having this huge fear that's stopping me from a lot of things. It's the fear of the unknown, the fear that I can never reach that insanely high expectations of myself, the fear of missing my dreams. But more importantly, the fear of being inadequate.
Education is important, so damn important. Yet at the same time, it only reflects how inadequate I am with the world of knowledge at my fingertips. Not only so, when you start to look at things from different perspectives and reason them out, you really don't want to be in my head right now. The constant arguments in my head are honestly driving me crazy. Sometimes I don't know how people remain so damn sane because I swear that in my head, it's an insane mess. Looking at issues and comparing ethics, capitalism, humanity, society, academia, government perspectives, I often fall into a limbo where nothing is right and nothing is wrong. Maybe that's it in life. It's all opinions/views and nothing is ever right or wrong. Yet, the validity of an opinion is another debate on its own.
Technology is also changing astonishing fast. We keep saying that the world is changing but honestly, it is happening right here right now. Right before our eyes. Change is the only constant in today's world and imagination is the only asset you need to be investing right now. Top 20 companies used to be dominated by oil and gas, but technology companies have broken that glass ceiling and soar even higher. Who knows what companies are going to dominate the charts in the next 15 years. It's the time to dream bigger, play larger and work smarter. Unicorns (startups) are popping out everywhere (and you thought they were rare), and revolutionary change comes in as little as 3-5 years. It's incredibly amazing to be living right now.
Thus, back to the point of inadequacy. Knowledge of tomorrow could essentially displace the knowledge of yesterday. Staying relevant and updated become so important. I have met so many ignorant people, and I am beyond worried that one day, that would be me. One day, all the knowledge will go to waste because there are so many new things coming up. Talk about big data, fintech, algorithms, IoT, and also about development, humanity, geopolitics, growth hacking, behavioural economics, neurology and more.
Also, I spent a fucking long time defining my dreams and creating plans to reach there. Yet, things have changed so fast many plans become obsolete. (Yeah, I totally agree that it is my fault for not capturing the wave.) So hey what’s up, just me being back in square one. But hey, at the same time, I’m never back at the same position. Maybe 1cm better positioning than before.
So I guess the point is, instead of running away from my fear, I will face/am facing it. Unless it is running as a sports, running away is the stupidest thing to do. And to think that I was doing it for like a month.
Ps, shout out to all the amazing individuals I've met, which only made me realise how much more I have to learn and grow. So inadequate when it comes to those individuals, but I’m happy to feel this way. It’s a good inadequacy. (It’s better to be the stupidest in the room than the smartest)